2004-12-24 - 11:34 p.m.
i tear my heart open just to feel
i've been sitting here in the same green long-sleeved ballerina t' for the past five days. of course i've showered, of course it's been washed.
and i've worn it inside-out, as another thing.
not on accident sadly, but neither intended.
atleast i brush my hair now.
i'm so carefree it's ridiculous sometimes.
anyway,
i felt like i needed a new start,
and a new layout to accompany it. if your screen size is not 1024x768, it probably won't look right.
i chose this image from the wonder of sam from explodingdog. it's such a magic; he's such a magic.
and i guess i need to tell you about the downfall of argos67.diaryland.com
well, long story short, if you don't want public access to your diary through search engines, code it into the header.
you can find instructions here, http://members.diaryland.com/edit/faq/misc.phtml. the instructions are all the way at the bottom.
the person that accessed my diary...i feel i cannot say much and protect his respect and privacy at the same time...
not more than a month ago, my friend sarah and i were talking about how people can take pieces of ourselves and carry them, never in courtesy to return them,
no matter how badly we don't want it to happen, secretly plead or grasp ourselves,
no matter how much we want to just keep all of ourselves to ourselves,
it happens.
it just happens.
and i hope i never see a certain boy again, and if i do,
i'll ask him to return the part of me that left with him
for that time,
and if he asks me to give back what i've taken,
i'll simply go back in time to that first day i walked in to jack in the box with stacey and meet cl all over again.
we'll start things right.
i'll introduce myself as megan, and you'll introduce yourself as cody,
and there will never be a greg and there will never be a misti,
and there will never be a time i let my heart run away with me.
we'll start things over again.